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I wrote this on Sunday morning when I was feeling down. Was debating posting, but fuck it. It’s not super cohereant but whatever.
I’m so grateful for the friends I’ve made, but I wish I was closer to them. I’m just so terrible with people that I have no idea how to do that. Having some around locally would be nice too.
I’m basically having my teenage/pop punk “I hate this town” moment now. I just know that I’m not going to get anywhere if I stay here.
I can’t stand where I work. Super unique I know. I really shouldn’t be working any kind of customer service. And I’ve been filling out applications for months and nothing. Super unique again, but it just sucks that I haven’t heard anything back. Like the one time I got an email saying the position was filled was great. I can stop worrying about that one. I just don’t know what to do.
I finally have a career idea, but it’s kinda crazy and I don’t know how my parents will react. I have to try at least, right?
I just get sad and angry about all this.
A lot of these feelings are amplified by the post-con blues. It’s just to go from being around so many cool people that care as deeply about the same stuff as you, to nothing in day to day life really sucks. All of that combines and it’s overwhelming sometimes.
Just know that if you read this crap, I really love and care about you. Even if you didn’t I probably still do.
To add on now, honestly I’m not usually in that bad of mood most of the time. I just get in my head about things and it really sucks.